A story about healing yourself: how to receive, give and take love

A life-changing experience in the desert

I had been disconnected for ten days without writing, without reading, without checking or posting anything on social networks. On Monday, April 29th, we left for Afrika Burn, the third consecutive life experience for me. I have broken all my routines, I have forgotten what it is to be self-disciplined, I have avoided any demand, I have fled commitments. Let me tell you that I have accepted whatever happened as the most appropriate way. I have also gone to meet the surrender, and I searched the depth of my being as much as I could. It was a journey about how to heal myself.

Moment of breathing

It was so much that I couldn’t be able to write until some days later, on Monday. Date when I had planned to return to normality, to my work and life. Instead, I decided to pause, breath. Look sideways, backward, and primarily inward, but to look. There was no writing, no reading, no receiving inputs, no asking for feedback, not surrounding myself with people, not doing things in a group. Instead, I started a 7-day trip, alone, on the Garden Route (west coast of South Africa).

How to heal yourself

Today I look back, not only on what I experienced in Afrika Burn, but on what happened on the previous two occasions, and what I experienced before in the last years. Mainly because I need to do it to understand where I have arrived on this “journey,” (“trip” will sound tricky, isn’t it?), like last year, I experienced one of the most beautiful transformational experiences I can remember, this year I have lived, which I now begin to feel is the most healing life-changing experience I have ever remembered. A little context before.

Everything has a price

Everything has a price, more awareness, more perception of reality, more reality. More nuances to more nuances, more readings, then more thoughts, more thoughts, more pain and pleasures, more sensations, more stimuli, more reactions, more duality.

Do you want magic? Gather the right people

All this accompanied by a lot of Spanish people, something of which, I have enjoyed it very much. On the one hand, Tucho, Javi, Valentino, Carlos, Juan, Álvaro, Cristóbal, and a group of genuine people from Madrid who came together as a team. Then some bad-ass people like the people of La Despensa, Javier and the rest of them, and the legendary José Pascual. Also, Doug, Kevin, Lionel, and Rad, George, Kyle, some of my favorites, some of my good friends were in other camps, people like Alexis, Lennert, Mikhail, Jo, Thiago, Willy, Rag… If it’s true that the dose makes the poison, here putting all of them together, then made the poison an explosive cocktail.

Then, people like my bro Fosta, Siphie, Trenton, Bianca, Tania, world-class Amie, the remarkable Milan, and also others from the Langa townships and Bridges for Music team. And of course people from every part of the world that I got to meet there. All have contributed to what for most of the immense majority (even for the old burners) has been a deep transforming coexistence; you only have to listen to the testimony of each one of them in the last few days. People are the only ones capable of turning an event into something unforgettable and exhilarating.

An incredible life-changing experience on how to heal yourself

Incredible because I was able to reach a place where I never thought I could reach (with the help of psilocybin). I never imagined that I could have so much pain, grief, bitterness, affliction, lack of love, and torment inside me. The most incredible thing is that they weren’t present during the 36 years that I have lived. I could feel it. All the unworthiness, those big and deep limiting beliefs, that feeling of not feeling loved, of not being enough, they came from before being conceived.

Now I know exactly where they come from, so much so that felt I was there, conscious and living those moments. The rest is something that I will not share with anyone other than myself. I never remember crying for so long, so melancholy, so depressed, so surrendered to experience. Accepting, perhaps, the bitterest thing I’ve ever tasted, after Gilberto’s death.

It is something unfair and unknown against what I had been fighting all my life until I was able to discover it and feel it in my flesh. A moment of understanding, empathy, acceptance, and letting go. I could live, understand, and now accept, something that was rooted in my gut and I was limiting myself without knowing how or why — only that way, I could get it out of me, and perhaps I will help me understand how to heal those wounds.

The best friend — and the worse enemy

I could only leave to go to the bathroom, when at a given moment, I was so exhausted, that I debated wetting myself, fortunately, my survival instinct took over, lifted me and I was able to go. And I remember walking as if I were in another world. I could not talk or think or react. Also, I went back to the tent, and I was still more in depth.

I was able to understand why the two things I fought the most in 2017, 2018 and 2019, asking for help and asking for love, as well as knowing how to receive and accept it. What a liberation, what an incredible moment. Everything made sense; I saw the superhuman effort that I had to do to not go through there. That has been creating a void in me — remember, everything has a price. I have been pushing everything away and becoming 100% against the current. Developing a mentality, attitude, and unstoppable push against beliefs, pain, incomprehension. And against love, from others, and therefore, my own — although I thought that the latter was not like that.

Finally I “had” to ask for help from Valentino, who once again was there. What gave birth to perhaps the most magical moment of love, affection, understanding, sincerity, transparency, and openness I remember sharing with someone. How to heal yourself also starts here.

Note — This necessary healing experience was also made possible by a minimal dose of psilocybin. (Here is an experiment I did under medical supervision a few months ago).

In the end, it’s simple, but not easy

One more thing, most people will tell you that opening Pandora’s box is dangerous, but I will tell you that not opening it is even more perilous.

Go where you may not come back from — and have an exciting trip.

One question for you, are you willing to know how to heal yourself?

Make this story rock only if you find it worth it! Please, clap if you did find any value.

Isra Garcia = 56 clients, 51businesses advised, 410speakings, 3.915 posts, 28 projects, 8 books, 420lectures, 6 companies, 19 adventures, 31experiments, ∞ failures. So far…

Marketer. Advisor. Speaker. Writer. Educator. Impresario. Principal at IG. Blogger. Entrepreneur. Disruptive innovation. Digital transformation. High-performer and a lifestyle experimentalist.

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